im blogging this because i dont have anyone to tell, but i am constantly thinking about the only woman i love. at the moment other girls are into me but i do not even give a shit, or the time of day. i was constantly looking for affection but i could care less about theirs.i always wanted love and affection but i realize now thats not at all what i want or need. i just need you. i long to hold you and sleep with you. make you late for work because i dont let you out of bed. tell you i love you a million times and mean it every single time i say it. i don’t need affection, because i realize i just want to give you mine. everytime i was sad and angry it was because i had all this emotion built up inside and i just wanted a way for you to know how much i loved you. more than love itself.i could never find the right words to match the feeling. i dont know if thats real but it feels that way when im with you. anything is possible. im always proud of you, im never ashamed to tell the universe about the girl who has my heart and probably always will.ill never turn my back on you, or give up because as long as i know in my heart that youre the one for me then there will always be a way. i dont know why you are feeling the way you do but every minute of everyday, i wake up so greatful to be yours, and i will feel that way till the bitter end with no regrets. ill always tell you how beautiful you are, how amazing you are, and how much you fascinate me with every little thing that you do. it blows my mind that there is a human being in this world thats so perfect. i can never make you love me but i know that you do. ill fight until i can make you mine forever. it was always the goal. it was always the plan from the beginning. the first time you stepped foot into my room i was instantly in awe. i knew i had to be with you. its funny because at the time i hated my life and my intentions for you were nothing but evil. i wanted nothing to do with having a girlfriend. then life happens and we are suddenly together. i fell in love, and i remember telling one of my best friends i know that ill end up marrying you. i feel that way till this very day. ill do what i set out to do, i dont doubt myself one bit. never will. you put fire into my soul, you make me passionate to give this everything i got. no one can tell me different. im so fucking happy and proud of myself because even though you dont feel the same, it doesnt even matter. i got my baby, the only woman i adore. Brandi. every text from you i am instantly filled with joy. every phone call i cant help but laugh and smile.i hope she knows that ill never turn my back on her, if she found someone else, ill know that no one will ever love her more than i do. and ill smile. ill never be selfish again. i got nothing but love. one day we will be happily together, reflect on this moment in our lives and laugh. we will laugh at how stupid we were because we were always meant to be. everything we have been through has led us to eachother. you will never see this but it helps to shout it out.i am madly in love with you. am i insane?maybe. but thats ok. are you unsure about everything going on in your life? yeah i think you are but i will never let you hold the weight of the world by yourself, ill take all your worries and put them on my back, its never to much. ill lift you up and carry you when you cant stand anymore,ill never let you down and if im long gone and you feel alone, just know that you will never be because ill love you and think about you for the rest of my life. i will ALWAYS be by your side. you will always have my heart.
I miss you every second of the day. Though I am taking the steps to get better, I know that I wanna do this with you buy my side. I pray for you every day. So that you can be happy and successful. I know that I can never give up. I miss your smile. Your eyes. Your toes. Your kisses. The way you look at me when you want something. How you knew id do anything for you if you just asked.
If someone else showed me love and affection would you have the right to be mad?
Fuck. I’m depressed.
I miss her so much, I started praying.
I’ll put my faith in all your bullshit if it means she”ll stay.